无殇师兄

Hello everyone, today I’m posting to tell you about my past. In 2020, I was in my senior year of high school. That year, during the pandemic, I first got exposed to the crypto market. Because I was extremely curious, I studied it inside out, and then I realized Bitcoin’s history is actually quite simple—but at the same time, it’s full of fantasy. In 2020, there was a big market drop. I remember Bitcoin falling to more than 20,000 RMB, and the smaller coins were even cheaper—so cheap they were basically like cabbage. At the time, I had saved a little over 30,000 RMB from childhood, so I bought 1.2 million TRON (TRX) coins, tens of thousands of EOS coins, and I can’t remember how many XRP. Back then, Ethereum was around 800 RMB per coin, and I bought a couple of dozen of them. I didn’t buy Bitcoin because I didn’t have enough funds. After that, I just kept everything sitting on the exchange and didn’t touch it. I think I bought close to the bottom. Then later, the market kept going up. I can’t remember exactly how much I sold here and there in between, but it was on the order of tens of thousands of RMB. Then in 2021, for some reason, there was a sudden huge surge. When Ethereum was around 1,200, I sold and withdrew roughly 20,000 USD from the exchange. The rest of the coins were all still on the exchange and I didn’t really manage them afterward. At the time, I used Huobi because I had made a double through my own judgment and trading decisions for the first time.
During that period, I also sold bits and pieces here and there to spend on things. All in all, I withdrew about 200,000 RMB (around 20w). That year, I was in my first year of college. People around me were all jealous and羡慕 me—they thought I could buy whatever I wanted. But they didn’t know that every day I did nothing but study the candlestick charts. And they also didn’t know why, all of a sudden, I had the idea to start a business. So I acted on it immediately.
I invested the money in a two-wheel ride-sharing rental shop near the school. Back then the campus didn’t have shared bikes. Business in 2021 was pretty good. But because the pandemic kept flaring up, a few months the shop even had to close directly. After things reopened, business became extremely good—my income was around 30,000 to 40,000 RMB a month. Later, I rented the second floor and opened a mahjong-and-pool hall. That business was also booming. Even though I did little day-to-day, I still made 10,000 to 20,000 RMB in net profit per month. This kind of state continued from the second half of 2021 all the way to 2025 (from first-year college to graduating as a senior). I managed classes and the shop at the same time—of course with staff management.
After opening the shops, I had too many things to deal with every day and no time to watch crypto. Then one day, I opened the exchange and it wouldn’t load. I didn’t know what was going on. I still had many coins in there. I felt completely numb. Then I asked around within the industry—people said Huobi had gone under, or that some had been arrested, or that there had been a run-off, and all kinds of rumors. I knew my coins probably weren’t coming back. So later I gave up on trying to recover them. I was just too busy, and before long I stopped thinking about it. I also had no time to study it anymore. For more than three years, I didn’t touch crypto at all. It was because I couldn’t bring myself to believe it.
During my entrepreneurship, I also invested in a university student delivery platform from my school. He had trouble with cash flow at the time. I directly gave him 30,000 RMB just to help stabilize things, because there was also another company competing with him. At that time, it was really hard for him. I invested in him, and later he actually managed to knock out the other company. When we later discussed revenue sharing, he said he would only give me 10%. I wasn’t satisfied. I told him, “Then treat it as a loan from me. If you make money later, just pay me back—I’m fine with that.” I effectively exited the partnership. I didn’t argue much. To me, “different paths don’t make for common purpose.” If someone thinks in a way that’s not aligned with how I think, and they don’t consider the bigger picture and shared interests, I just don’t feel like talking. I treated it as helping him.
After that, my business kept doing well up until 2025. In 2024, I took over a TuXi Express delivery convenience store near my school—plus delivery, a rental car business, mahjong and pool all downstairs in my building. It formed a positive feedback loop where each brought business to the others. While others struggled to make money, I was able to earn easily.
In those years, I didn’t buy a car or a house. I gave 50% of my earnings to my parents. I never smoke, never drink, and never go to bars or clubs. I also don’t go to any entertainment venues. I wanted an ideal world—outside was too noisy, and I just didn’t like it. When I had time, I would ride my R1 around to look at scenery. I prefer being alone. I felt strong enough to change my own life and also give my parents a better life.
Yes, those years I really made money. I helped as much as I could for friends around me. I also had close friends, just not nearby. One friend’s family was in a tough situation—his family had many children, and even food, clothing, housing, and transportation were difficult for them. His tuition and living expenses in college were paid by me. I told him, “If you have it later, give it back to me.” Honestly, whether he repays or not, I was willing to help him anyway, because it was just too hard for them. Every time I went to his place, I felt heartbroken. There wasn’t even a door on the room—just an empty frame, no bed—only a wooden board where he slept on the floor. I truly couldn’t stand it. His grades were also excellent—usually top a few in class. He was just a bit withdrawn, but I understood. Slowly, things improved for him. Helping him was the most proud thing I’ve done in these years. Now he has a stable job.
Finally I graduated. I had more time and freedom. I thought this kind of life would continue. Even after graduation, I could keep earning by running shops wherever I went—because now I would have more time. But last year, I returned to the crypto market again.
I checked the chart and saw crypto was taking a big hit due to tariff reasons. Ethereum fell to more than 1,300 USD. Later people said tariffs would be reduced, and there were also rate cut benefits. The market slowly recovered to more than 2,600 USD. During that time, it dropped sharply and then recovered to more than 2,600 again. I thought it was going up. So I went in and opened over 50 Ethereum positions. I hadn’t traded in years, and I basically went straight in using contracts. Of course I also wanted to test my luck. I even bought around 20,000 RMB worth of MYX (it was very hot back then, and I noticed it).
During the period there were fluctuations—up and down, but it didn’t really go higher, and it didn’t really go lower either. Around the night of June 16, about 12 o’clock, suddenly it exploded upward—one green long bullish candle, straight up like a shot from the ground. I was stunned. In one move, it pulled from around 2,700+ up to 3,000+. My account instantly gained another over 100,000 RMB. I closed my position immediately, thinking “this profit came too easily.” But later, everyone knows—I regretted it. Last year it ran up to nearly 4,900+. Since I entered, it never dropped and kept rising. I hit myself and slapped my own leg—like “my thigh turned into a thin leg.” Then I watched MYX go down, and it didn’t move up at all, so I sold it. Result: on the left side my thigh turned into thin, and on the right side it got snapped—everyone understands what happened afterward. Maybe things had been too smooth these years, but also maybe I was too cautious.
Then on July 16, 2025, I got into a car accident. My body was thrown straight out. I lost consciousness and went to the hospital. There was a huge wound on my head and I lost a lot of blood. That day I hadn’t worn a helmet. Later the doctor said I had hemorrhagic shock. I fractured my kneecap (patella), and I also had a herniated disc in my lumbar spine. It hurt every day and I couldn’t stand it. I also had many abrasions all over. My pinky toe was fractured, and my mouth was scraped too. I flew out in such a way that I couldn’t even find my shoes.
But that day was exactly the time I took over another new “CaiNao Express” station. It was my first day taking over—then the accident happened. I don’t know why it was so coincidental.
I couldn’t manage the shop directly at all because everything became phone calls. And gradually, more problems appeared. Sometimes employees were careless and negligent; sometimes they slowed down or didn’t take work seriously—I couldn’t see it firsthand. The CaiNao station I took over only turned out okay in the first month. In the following months, it kept losing money continuously.
In September, the school term started—so losses became even worse. Money went down the drain, missed deliveries, the whole mess—everything cost money. Even the older employees left after the first month. After that, it was all new hires. They couldn’t hold the fort. Finally, in the fifth month, it stopped losing money—but by then I had already put in about 70,000 to 80,000 RMB in losses. After that, the lease term expired.
I originally wanted to renew. But the developer told me they needed me to pay a new deposit of 40,000 RMB. I wasn’t fully understanding: “Didn’t I already transfer it? Why do I have to pay again?” The developer said the deposit was paid by the previous owner—the one before the previous owner. I said, “Wasn’t it said in the contract that it was paid by him? I transferred it from him.” Then I realized I’d been scammed. I argued with them and asked for a refund. The developer said she had paid part of it. Honestly, I was really fed up with communication like this.
In a fit of anger, I transferred 150,000 RMB worth of deliveries for 20,000 RMB—meaning I ran for half a year and lost around 300,000 RMB. Then my main store also ran into problems. The newly opened, bigger, cheaper self-service mahjong-and-pool hall upstairs/down the street began stealing my business. Also due to regulations about two-wheel vehicles, many people didn’t want to use them anymore. On top of that, there was a sudden macro economic downturn, and many people actually didn’t want to spend. It was a strange phenomenon.
In the end, I was losing money on both sides. I got into a car accident—why did every unlucky thing come all at once onto me? Aren’t people supposed to survive a major disaster and then have good fortune ahead? Or does it mean if you survive a disaster you should just take even more setbacks? Am I destined to be so unlucky that I won’t survive?
With employee issues and a chain reaction of problems coming one after another, in half a year I directly went under. I even sold my beloved car and used the money to pay debts.
During that time I thought I was just borrowing for turnover from friends, a few tens of thousands at a time, because before I treated them well and they were willing to help. But later, things got worse and worse. After I cleared all rent, utilities, and payroll for employees, I literally tossed everything aside. But I still owed 200,000 RMB in debt.
Last year, I stayed alone in another city and didn’t dare go home to spend New Year’s. That day I drank a lot while on a hillside. I fell asleep straight there. I didn’t tell anyone what happened. I didn’t reply to people’s messages well either. My life was turning worse. My health was bad, my condition was bad. And I couldn’t even believe that all of this could fall on me one after another.
Because of the car accident, I also couldn’t do much work. For these past half year plus, I truly lived in pain—I couldn’t do anything. But my heart wouldn’t allow me to just live like this. I really didn’t want to spend every day like this. I want to go back to the battlefield and keep fighting. I don’t want to be so cowardly and useless—unable even to change my current situation.
Today I post this to give myself a summary. I know there are objective factors, but there are also many reasons on my own. Over the past half year, I’ve seen the cold warmth of human hearts, and I’ve understood a lot. Now even friends say they can’t wait any longer to get their money back. They think I borrowed on purpose but can’t repay. They are also filing lawsuits against me one after another.
But when I borrowed from them, nobody remembered anything like that. I don’t want to dwell on these issues of human nature. I simply didn’t reply to messages, because I knew I couldn’t solve any problems right now. So they sued me.
But as long as I stand up, I still have many good business ideas that I haven’t done yet. I’m not willing to give up. Through these years of experience, I’ve come up with two very good industries—stable, low risk, and with high return. When I have nothing to do, I never just idle. I will research materials, check data, and validate these projects. Even though I failed, I still want to come back.
I want to stand up again. Even if I fall, I can only become more resilient. But I’m one person, and my abilities are limited. Posting this is also because I hope there is someone who understands me and can give me a helping hand. Please believe that I will stand up again.
I’m 26 this year. I’m not married. No girlfriend. My height is 181. My looks are about like Wu Sehun. But that’s just my appearance. What I want to say is: my business logic and judgment are basically very accurate. In 2021, I co-founded a campus delivery business. Later, one partner became the dominant boss and he earned a lot of money—only because of personal reasons, I decided to withdraw. Also there’s the brand Ninebot electric scooters. In 2022, I originally wanted to invest, but I couldn’t manage it properly because I was still in school, so I didn’t do it. Now Ninebot has grown into the number one brand in the industry. Back then there were fewer than 50 stores nationwide, and now there are more than 10,000.
I once talked with a friend about space-capsule themed homestays—these years it’s also been very popular. We also discussed a foreign trade company, and we even prepared to invest in a studio. 3D printing is a future boom. There’s also a thermal power generation industry—I looked into that too.
What I’m most interested in is the low-altitude transportation industry. The future prospects are enormous. Once food, clothing, housing, and transportation are all solved, it’s transportation that becomes the biggest problem. When transportation becomes as simple as eating, that’s the real transformation of the times.
I’m different from many people. I think about many things when I have time. Basically, I’ve verified my judgments. If there are big shots in this world who can see how I’m different, I hope you can step in and help me. Please believe I will become your best friend.
I’m 26, but my mental age might be much older than that. Please believe me and give me a chance to stand up. I’m willing to repay you for my whole life. Because I’ve been at the bottom for too long. One to two years is enough to change a person.
Do you want to give me a chance? Maybe it’s just a small rescue from you in the blink of an eye—but it could turn into a legend. If you want, we can meet and talk in person. You can use all your questions to test me. If I don’t pass your requirements, you don’t have to help me. Money is just a number to you. What you want is “the real thing.” Maybe for you, nothing matters more than “the real thing.”
This is my call for help to the world. I hope you won’t laugh at me, because I really want to stand up.
Thank you everyone. If you have friends who support and encourage me, please help share this post. Thank you to every benefactor.
If anyone sees this, here is my contact information: 19042972672