She fell asleep, and I started to operate frantically
I took the 200,000 yuan I had just borrowed, and fantasized about quickly getting my money back by rolling ETH. At that time, I was already obsessed with it. There was no logic or thinking in opening a position, and it was all based on intuition. The risk of rolling a position was very high, and an extreme market pit would make you return to zero directly.
But at that time, I didn't think about these things at all, I just wanted to give it a try and catch every rise and fall. After opening a long position, if I closed the position, I would immediately open a short position. Looking at myself at that time now, I feel that I was really a lunatic!
At that time, money was already a number to me. I lost nearly 10,000 U by opening a position randomly in 2 waves at the beginning. I didn't stop and kept opening positions over and over again, always losing a lot and making a small profit.
I almost traded all night, and I had been sleeping lightly for a few hours every day in the previous few days. Challenging the limits of my body, I woke up at dawn and continued to go to work. I still continued to open positions at work, and my condition couldn't be worse. I lost about half of the 200,000 yuan that day, and I was still constantly trading.
In this situation, I still have to face the girl I love. I know that the more I fall, the more indifferent I have to be to her. My chats with her have become more and more perfunctory. I know that I am becoming more and more powerless to change the situation. I have clearly seen her message, but I dare not reply. I really want to chat with her happily like before, see her happy reply, and be happy for her. I see her unhappy reply and comfort her. Listen to her joys and sorrows, make plans in my free time, take her out to play, go outings, go picnics, and feel the beauty of nature. However, the reality I am facing now is a long night, and it seems that only a ray of light in my imagination can let me walk out of the darkness again. I almost collapsed at work. I ran to the toilet with the door closed and cried when I saw her message. I thought of a lot of replies, but I can only reply to her indifferently, but not too indifferently. I know that I want her to slowly accept the pain of breaking up with me little by little.
At night, she seemed to have sensed my indifference and perfunctory attitude. She is a very direct person and told me that she was unhappy. In the past, I might have comforted her, but now I can't say it.
I just let her rest early and then continue my rolling operation. I haven't given up yet.
I took the 200,000 yuan I had just borrowed, and fantasized about quickly getting my money back by rolling ETH. At that time, I was already obsessed with it. There was no logic or thinking in opening a position, and it was all based on intuition. The risk of rolling a position was very high, and an extreme market pit would make you return to zero directly.
But at that time, I didn't think about these things at all, I just wanted to give it a try and catch every rise and fall. After opening a long position, if I closed the position, I would immediately open a short position. Looking at myself at that time now, I feel that I was really a lunatic!
At that time, money was already a number to me. I lost nearly 10,000 U by opening a position randomly in 2 waves at the beginning. I didn't stop and kept opening positions over and over again, always losing a lot and making a small profit.
I almost traded all night, and I had been sleeping lightly for a few hours every day in the previous few days. Challenging the limits of my body, I woke up at dawn and continued to go to work. I still continued to open positions at work, and my condition couldn't be worse. I lost about half of the 200,000 yuan that day, and I was still constantly trading.
In this situation, I still have to face the girl I love. I know that the more I fall, the more indifferent I have to be to her. My chats with her have become more and more perfunctory. I know that I am becoming more and more powerless to change the situation. I have clearly seen her message, but I dare not reply. I really want to chat with her happily like before, see her happy reply, and be happy for her. I see her unhappy reply and comfort her. Listen to her joys and sorrows, make plans in my free time, take her out to play, go outings, go picnics, and feel the beauty of nature. However, the reality I am facing now is a long night, and it seems that only a ray of light in my imagination can let me walk out of the darkness again. I almost collapsed at work. I ran to the toilet with the door closed and cried when I saw her message. I thought of a lot of replies, but I can only reply to her indifferently, but not too indifferently. I know that I want her to slowly accept the pain of breaking up with me little by little.
At night, she seemed to have sensed my indifference and perfunctory attitude. She is a very direct person and told me that she was unhappy. In the past, I might have comforted her, but now I can't say it.
I just let her rest early and then continue my rolling operation. I haven't given up yet.