My ultimate goal is to return to real business, do a business venture. That is my ultimate aspiration, and I also like doing business. I want to become rich and prosperous through business too—without commerce, there’s no wealth. Working a job definitely won’t get you anywhere. My current predicament is that I have no connections or routes, and no capital. Even if I have capital, I still don’t have the right connections. Even if I had the connections, the current overall environment still isn’t right. Whatever I try ends up losing money, and there are countless bankrupt bosses. If you tell me to commit a crime, I don’t have that kind of nerve either. Even skirting the edge is something I don’t dare to do, because China’s laws are just like that: if they want to catch you, they’ll go after you and make up reasons to claim you’re guilty in order to produce results. So now I’m really torn up inside. If I keep working a job, how long will it take before there’s an end to this? Right now, even finding a job is hard. Oh, I can’t even let myself think about it—once I start thinking, it makes me feel awful. When I feel awful, my chest feels tight; when my chest feels tight, I want to go get a massage. But now I don’t have any money either. That makes it even harder to bear.