I have been trading contracts for a month now, and I can't believe I am still in this market. Surviving great difficulties must bring future blessings; this time I decided to go all in. At first, I didn't understand anything and bought 220,000 USDT with a friend, which is about 1.5 million RMB. As soon as I entered the market, I went long, but then encountered a big drop the night before Japan's interest rate hike. I watched as I lost over 40,000, and the decline was getting worse. I was unwilling to accept this, so I immediately went short. Just after I went short, the price started to rise again, and I lost another few thousand USDT. I was determined to defy the odds and started making random trades, and my account balance dropped to just over 80,000 USDT. I called my friend for advice; after all, he has been in the crypto world for over ten years and could give me some pointers. He told me to stop trading; since I just entered and was playing contracts like this, there was a high probability I would lose everything. However, after a few days, I had already lost nearly 1 million RMB, and at that point, if I didn't play, wouldn't that mean I was admitting defeat? So I went all in again and bought 30 bitcoins. Later, I broke even at 140,000 USDT. Then I reduced my leverage a bit, messed around for a few days, and returned to 220,000 USDT. Finally, I got my money back. I initially said I wouldn't play anymore, but I ended up getting back in, and then I got carried away again. Around the 7th, my account went back down to 120,000 USDT, and I felt a chill in my heart. I lost the motivation to send messages in the plaza. On the 11th, I steeled my heart and bought 30 bitcoins, thinking that if I lost everything, I wouldn't play anymore. Unexpectedly, after two days, it surged to over 97,000, and my account instantly reached 300,000 USDT. Not only did I break even, but I also made 80,000 USDT. Because I saw a good trend, I added to my position at 97,300, thinking I would reduce my position at 98,300. I stayed up until four in the morning, but I never got the chance. Unexpectedly, it dropped back to around 95,000, and my 300,000 USDT instantly became 150,000 USDT, losing another 70,000 USDT. I lost a lot of hair, and I even lost a few pounds; it was really exhausting. It would be better to go all in; either lose everything and quit or take off directly. This time I went for 20 bitcoins and 500 ethers. If I get liquidated, I will exit the market. If I take off, I will go live. $BTC